What I wanted but did not get for Christmas

1. Ryan to be with me during Christmas

2. A kitten

3. Open-minded Christians

4. A new friendlier version of my roommate

5. My nightmares to magically disappear

6. Good Grades

7. A direction in life

8. Motivation

9. Blog writing ideas

10. ...

FU

The world can just fuck off right now.

I haven't been able to sleep in months.

Doctors think I have Narcolepsy.

And it pisses me off that I have to remember dreams where I see people shooting themselves in the head. Where I feel the bullets going through my neck. My guts spilling into my hands.

And it pisses me off that at least three times a night I wake up shivering and covered in cold sweat.

But what really gets me is that no one takes me seriously.