So I have no idea how I got this weak. It must be a combination of the withdrawl, the new side effects, and some other strange illness that presents without a fever. I feel like shit. It sucks to move, it makes me dizzy.
I feel so weak. I lost 20 pounds in less than two weeks! That is really bad. Ugh I hope I don't lose any more. I need to find the energy to go to class. I sleep for 12+ hours a day, and still I am tired.
I think the last time I felt this bad was when I had just gotten out of the hospital in 2007. I dislike this.
FG
Monday, February 22, 2010
Sunday, February 21, 2010
half birthday
I really have no idea anymore about where I'm going. Its up in the air. I'm just trying to live day by day.
So many hurdles to jump. So many that I've missed or knocked down. Yeah I know, clumsy me.
But it's getting there. Whatever it means to "get there."
It will all get sorted out in the end.
FG
So many hurdles to jump. So many that I've missed or knocked down. Yeah I know, clumsy me.
But it's getting there. Whatever it means to "get there."
It will all get sorted out in the end.
FG
Monday, February 8, 2010
Stupid people doing stupid things
RANT:
So the weirdest thing just happened. I was in my room reading my leisure book when all of a sudden I hear all of this chanting from outside my window. I get up to look, and it appears that there was an accident infront of the dorms. I look closer, and there are three tow trucks and a couple cop cars towing people's cars from the street. WTF Augie?
First of all, its midnight.
Second, we are only supposed to get half an inch of snow!
Third, where was the email telling people to move their cars?
This school and city has some really fucked up ways of dealing with people. There was a crowd of about 15 people standing out in the negative degree weather. A couple were trying to negotiate the tow trucks to just put their cars back down and they would move them. Ugh. It makes me sick to think that the city targets colleges as an easy income for them. The whole undertaking was totally unfair to students, and it disgusts me to know that these things happen, and that the school, campus safety and the cops don's seems to give a crap about the student's rights, and needs when it comes to finding parking.
The school needs to fix this. Build another parking lot with all that money we give you each year!
END RANT.
So the weirdest thing just happened. I was in my room reading my leisure book when all of a sudden I hear all of this chanting from outside my window. I get up to look, and it appears that there was an accident infront of the dorms. I look closer, and there are three tow trucks and a couple cop cars towing people's cars from the street. WTF Augie?
First of all, its midnight.
Second, we are only supposed to get half an inch of snow!
Third, where was the email telling people to move their cars?
This school and city has some really fucked up ways of dealing with people. There was a crowd of about 15 people standing out in the negative degree weather. A couple were trying to negotiate the tow trucks to just put their cars back down and they would move them. Ugh. It makes me sick to think that the city targets colleges as an easy income for them. The whole undertaking was totally unfair to students, and it disgusts me to know that these things happen, and that the school, campus safety and the cops don's seems to give a crap about the student's rights, and needs when it comes to finding parking.
The school needs to fix this. Build another parking lot with all that money we give you each year!
END RANT.
Orion & Dog - Sea Wolf
Orion said, This body is mine,
And you may do with it what ever you like
But when the sky turns red you'd better come back home
'Cause i can't spend these summer nights alone
Orion said, I'm just a humble hunter
The dog the only company I keep
Forgive me if if I fear that you will change me
But I've seen my fortune written in the leaves
Ah, push it through! Ah, push it through!
Because the body and the mind can't heal in two
Orion and dog, how the road you've walked was long
But the winter of your song
Is slowly fading
Orion said, You'd better treat me true
You should hold me like a bird inside your palm
'Cause I can't be just another heart you've broken
'Cause I'm getting much too old
Orion, she said, I know all men are mortal
And the ships in which you travel are full of thieves
But the only way that you will ever have me
Is if you through your body into the sea
Ah, push it through! Ah, push it through!
Because the body and the mind can't heal in two
Orion and dog, how the road you've walked was long
But the winter of your song
Is slowly fading
Orion and dog, How your light will live beyond
your final summer song
Or so it's fated
Or so it's fated
So it is fated
And you may do with it what ever you like
But when the sky turns red you'd better come back home
'Cause i can't spend these summer nights alone
Orion said, I'm just a humble hunter
The dog the only company I keep
Forgive me if if I fear that you will change me
But I've seen my fortune written in the leaves
Ah, push it through! Ah, push it through!
Because the body and the mind can't heal in two
Orion and dog, how the road you've walked was long
But the winter of your song
Is slowly fading
Orion said, You'd better treat me true
You should hold me like a bird inside your palm
'Cause I can't be just another heart you've broken
'Cause I'm getting much too old
Orion, she said, I know all men are mortal
And the ships in which you travel are full of thieves
But the only way that you will ever have me
Is if you through your body into the sea
Ah, push it through! Ah, push it through!
Because the body and the mind can't heal in two
Orion and dog, how the road you've walked was long
But the winter of your song
Is slowly fading
Orion and dog, How your light will live beyond
your final summer song
Or so it's fated
Or so it's fated
So it is fated
Sunday, February 7, 2010
"Before they put us in a coffin I've got things to say..."
Update! Finally. So this blog I suppose has been turned into my miscellaneous blog, as I have two other ones now to fulfill specific areas of my writing needs.
SO lets talk about college. I think I finally have it all put together. I have my own room and that means I have my own place to do anything I want. Well not anything I suppose. But I can do my homework in here without being bothered by people, I can listen to my music all the time, and I can go to bed at a reasonable hour. The only main problem about my living arrangements is the fact that it is a dorm. I chose the end of the hallway for a reason. It usually is quieter. Psych! Guess what!? My neighbor LOVES to party all night long, with her weird friends that sing karaoke at 3am. Oh, and did I mention the guys that live above me typically spend their nights playing video games or watching sports and loudly cheering and moving furniture about. Oh well.
Classes this semester are all after noon. This is great for me and my stupid sleep problems. Its a workload, but I'm only really taking one challenging course as recommended to me by my parents. So far I've been able to complete all my homework easily, leaving me bored and at a loss of what to do. So I guess I am writing blogs now for fun :P
It really sucks to have Ryan be gone. I worry all the time about him. It freaks me out that he is in a college setting overseas. It couldn't be worse for my maniacal pessimistic mind. But I'm hoping things will turn out alright.
Thats it for now. I'm off to go finish reading some more leisure books.
FG
SO lets talk about college. I think I finally have it all put together. I have my own room and that means I have my own place to do anything I want. Well not anything I suppose. But I can do my homework in here without being bothered by people, I can listen to my music all the time, and I can go to bed at a reasonable hour. The only main problem about my living arrangements is the fact that it is a dorm. I chose the end of the hallway for a reason. It usually is quieter. Psych! Guess what!? My neighbor LOVES to party all night long, with her weird friends that sing karaoke at 3am. Oh, and did I mention the guys that live above me typically spend their nights playing video games or watching sports and loudly cheering and moving furniture about. Oh well.
Classes this semester are all after noon. This is great for me and my stupid sleep problems. Its a workload, but I'm only really taking one challenging course as recommended to me by my parents. So far I've been able to complete all my homework easily, leaving me bored and at a loss of what to do. So I guess I am writing blogs now for fun :P
It really sucks to have Ryan be gone. I worry all the time about him. It freaks me out that he is in a college setting overseas. It couldn't be worse for my maniacal pessimistic mind. But I'm hoping things will turn out alright.
Thats it for now. I'm off to go finish reading some more leisure books.
FG
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